Da Na. Da Na. Da Na.

Ok, if you were wondering where the heck I got my title for this post it's my sad attempt at the Jaws theme song.   What I wish to express by putting that as my title is my dread for today and tomorrow. Today, January 19th, is the one year anniversary of my flight to Orlando, Florida- the day that began my wonderful and beautiful friendship with Miss Chelsea. Tomorrow, January 20th, will be the one year anniversary of the start of my Disney College Program- the most magical eight months of my life. I've been a little down today and I can only expect it will get worse tomorrow, but I shall talk more about that in a bit. As for now, I would like to pay a special little tribute to one of my bestest friends- Chelsea.
Chelsea is a beautiful person! I met Chelsea at a College Program (CP for short) Kickoff party up at school in Idaho. As people went around the room and introduced themselves and said what day their program began me and Chels Bells appeared to be some of the few that started on January 20th. After casually talking to each other and discussing our much anticipated program we decided to meet up the day before and share a hotel room (arriving a day early just seemed like the easier thing to do). So time went on. We ended up becoming Facebook friends (as all great friendships should start), but I was terrified to talk to her. She seemed so cool and by the looks of it she already had some great friends and who was I to try and squeeze myself in there? Plus, I didn't want to freak her out. So on the 19th I fly my butt across the country to meet up with a girl I hardly knew. I was scared. I was starting an eight month journey of living on my own in a place I didn't know much about, all without my mommy.
Turns out I had nothing to worry about. Things in the hotel room turned out great. We were both shy, but after borrowing her computer, eating a BUNCH of Starbursts, and ordering a ginormous pizza things turned out ok. We casually talked about "hopefully" becoming roommates, since we kind of knew each other, but I'm not sure if either one of us actually expected this to happen.
The next morning it began. We traveled back to the airport from our hotel, only to be shuttled straight to Vista Way, where we were to officially become Cast Members. Everything went smoothly. I was BEYOND excited. I Was about to start my ears! Who could blame me!?! Turns out Chels and I were assigned roommates, and not only that but we even got into the same room. I could tell that this was supposed to be. We were supposed to be life long friends.
Well the eight months went on. Chelsea and I cried together, we laughed together (a lot), and we def ate together. This girl is amazing. She kept me anchored. She has the most AMAZING laugh and even more amazing facial expressions. She always keeps ya on your toes. She's brilliant. She's insane. She talented. She's a great cook. She's caring. She's sweet. And she's my best friend. I don't think I will ever meet someone more amazing. She has such a special spirit about her. I love her. And I just want to tell her thanks. Thanks Chels Bells for making the magic. I'm glad we're best friends. "You don't talk much. I LIKE YOU!"

Now our other roommates were also amazing. I count them as some of my bestest friends too. Britney is insane. That girl is HILARIOUS. She became my second mother almost. She always made sure I was fed and on my birthday she made our friend Pitt drive us to go get us a real German birthday cake. That meant a lot to me. She is a sweet spirit. We had some rough patches for sure, but Brit your awesome. I love ya girly!

I do believe that leaves Miss Ashleigh. Ashwee is AMAZING! One of the strongest people I know. She has been through so much, but she wears her beautiful smile no matter what. Ashleigh is a person I will always hold near and dear to my heart. She always got me. I had so much fun taking beach trips, ice cream trips, going to class, and just everything with her! Whatever we did we had a good time. I miss having this girl near me 24/7. Ash is so beautiful. She's amazingly nice and has a b-e-a-U-tiful singing voice. She taught me to always keep a song in my head and heart. This gal is a doll and I love her with all my heart. 

Man oh man. What to say, what to say? One year ago I was about to have the time of my life. One year ago I was about to meet people who would go on to become some of the most beautiful, dearest, truest, bestest, and wonderful friends I will ever come to know. One year ago I was about to be changed forever. One year ago I was about to start looking for hidden Mickey's in everything I see. One year ago I was about to really feel the magic. One year ago I was about to become the tannest person alive. One year ago I was about to love nothing more than the color yellow (thank you parking uniforms). One year ago I was really happy and excited about what was to come! It's not that I'm not happy now. I am. Well actually at the moment I have a throbbing headache from crying my eyes out all day, but that's just cause I'm remembering all of this. All of the magic. I am happy. I just feel...weighted down I guess. I'm worried. I'm worried about finding a job. I'm worried about money. I'm worried about paying for school. I'm worried about what is to come for me. Will I have another adventure soon? Sure doesn't look like it because I don't even have enough money to put gas in my car. I just feel, at the moment, that nothing will come close to the experience I had last year at this time. I feel like a loser. I know things are gonna get better and that's what I'm holding in for :-)! 

When I get in these sort of moods, which isn't often and never as bad as this, I like to watch my favorite movie/musical "Singin' in the Rain". I just love it. I love the musical numbers. I love the dance numbers. I love the costumes. I love Gene Kelly. I love Donald O' Connor!!!!! I just plain love it. ANYWAYS, it always brightens my mood. I guess it teaches me to sing in the rain. When bad things are happening and times are hard I just need to brighten my mood. So I'm trying to be happy. I am. I just need to stay away from Disney music and my pictures ha! 

If any of my Disney pals are reading this: thanks. You guys made my program. You made the magic for me. Thanks for putting up with my jokes, my weirdness, my mumbles, my everything. Ya'll are amazing. I think about ya all the time. I hope everything is going good for ya and I hope we can meet up again soon. I love ya so on with the show! That's a wrap!