Uphill...always. Blah

What is up? I'll tell you what's up- the pathway that I seem to be walking on called life. I am so stinkin' tired, it's redic (ridiculous abbreviated). I am tired of everything being so difficult lately. It's never ending!!! I suppose that's how life should be, but still. Happy times please!!!!!
See it all started when I lost my bestie. I didn't lose him as in death, I just lost him. I don't know what happened. I mean I have a faint idea, but it doesn't make sense to me. My heart just aches for him! I just miss talking to him constantly and sharing stupid things with him. I really do. He was my bestest friend ever and I'm pretty sure he knew my heart and soul. Joe, I miss you sooooo much and I wish you knew how much I need you right now.
Anyways, back to the story, it all started with that. Ever since then I have been put through the ringer, I swear! I have had trouble with money, with school, with home, with everything. I just feel so heavy, like my feelings are giant weights and I have no way of putting them down. Part of the reason, I believe, is because I work ALL the time and I hardly have any friends. For real. I never go out. I never really talk to anyone but my family. I just don't. I never have anytime for my art anymore. One thing that Joe said to me before we stopped talking was that he was trying to give me some little creative projects because he felt like I was losing myself. And I am!!!! I am losing myself to adult life. It's kind of sad.
I am just having a little bit of a hard time and I don't know what to do. How do I get my best guy friend back? How do I make all my troubles stop? How? Any suggestions?

OH! And on another note: I HAVE FOUR FOLLOWERS! WHAT THE HECK!?! Granted, one of my followers is myself buttttttttttt I HAVE FOUR FOLLOWERS!!!!! You guys are cool. Thanks :-)